Long Night

last night I feelt completely numb apart from a deep ache so far inside me. Exactly the same feeling I had when Mandy died, except this time I reconised it. The rain didn't help- usually don't mind rain esp. at night when I don't have to get wet, but last night it was the most horrible sound......to the point that I didn't want to get up this morning until it stopped which meant I got up too late for uni- so now I'm sitting at home telling myself I'll make the best of it by writting the 2 essays due in but not getting at all far.

Such a wierd feeling- I don't hate anything, I don't hate my life, not angry with God- if anything its the opposite because I love my life and the people and things in it, inc. God.

Been accepted to work at the local high school and help some kids out there- which is great, but was told about it on a day when I felt the least able to handle anything like that- life can be so ironic!

So this is my way of talking about it because the fact that it involves someone else which every christian in my life knows and the people I've tried to talk to are busy having babies or going through their own dramas is making it kind of hard- not going to take the 'easy ' way out this time and push through it!!:)

Jesus can be creative!

'In principle that is exactly how Jesus approached the woman at the well. She had come to draw water, so he spoke to her of living water which would quench her every thirst.' - Watson

Interesting thought.... Jesus didn't just reel off some practiced speal he was creative and talked about stuff where she was at and which meant something to her, using an illistration which had meaning for her. Something that would be completely lost in big group settings or church sermons but still very important.

The book also mentioned the stroy of a pastor who witnessed to his garbage man- about how Jesus can empty the rubbish out of his heart.... what other modern day examples could we do.... wonder how Jesus would minister to 'Kenny' (that movie thats just been released).... ;)

Evangelism

We're looking at the book 'Discipleship' by David Watson on Wed nights and we have to make a summary of each chapter...... so I thought I might as well post my summaries for the enjoyment of all!
I basically just mention stuff that makes me think but some of the things prob won't make much sense out of context..... so I'd read the book or can ask me any q's

Discipleship- chapter 9
Evangelism

-Christ’s call to discipleship is not primarily for the benefit of the disciple.- p.187
- Even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life a ransom for many.
-The greater part of our so-called evangelism takes place within or on the fringes of the church; we do not seem yet to have found the way to break out of the Christian ghetto into the world. –p. 189
- This is where we see the vital necessity of personal witness leading to effective discipleship.
- We need to develop among Gods people, not merely the professionals, the sense of vocation as to where we live and work.
- If we Christians pray that God’s kingdom may come, we must be willing to be the answer to our own prayers, with all the imaginative boldness of those first disciples. –p.190
-All are witnesses to Christ, all must be committed to the church’s task of evangelising; but only some are evangelists.
- He knows that God can break through any defences, and change any heart. This confidence will not be brash, but humble and sensitive, marked by much prayer. He knows that without God he can do nothing, but that with God all things are possible.-p.191
- Paul once wrote that ‘our gospel came to you not only in word, but also in power and in the Holy Spirit and with full conviction’.-p.192
- A friend of mine once said that the most important thing about us is not what we say, not what we do; it is ‘our unconscious influence- impregnated with the fragrance of Jesus’. –p.193
- Whenever God did something new amongst them, his work was opposed and rejected. –p.195
-The image of the church is too flabby to warrant persecution. It is not worth opposing its movement since it is on the retreat anyway.
- As long as we ‘play’ at evangelism, with no risk to ourselves and no price to pay, we shall make little or no impact on our society. –p.196
- But the evangelist must listen to and take seriously the questions people are asking: only then will he be relevant. –p.198
- When people see his power to change people’s hearts, to restore broken relationships, to break oppression, to enforce justice, to heal emotional hurts and physical diseases, then with one accord they will begin to take notice. –p.199
-Believing that God’s Spirit is at work throughout the world, we need to see what the Spirit is doing in people’s lives, and then have the sensitivity and boldness to take the opportunities as they come.- p.201
- There is a time to speak and a time to keep silence.
-In principle that is exactly how Jesus approached the woman at the well. She had come to draw water, so he spoke to her of living water which would quench her every thirst. –p.202
-In evangelism, we must know our bibles.
- In many cases, those who don’t believe don’t want to believe. –p.203
- Leading a person to Christ (p.204): 1. Something to admit, 2. Something to believe, 3. Something to consider, 4. Something to do.
- Relationships do not depend on feelings, but on commitment and trust. –p.206
- There have been moments of doubt, disobedience, rebellion, and so on. But when you work through the difficulties in any relationship, so it matures and develops.
- There is no joy in all the world like the joy of bringing one soul to Christ. That is the privilege and responsibility of every disciple.-p. 208

Hi everyone!

Well it's been a while- to the point that anyone who had any patience with my irregular rantings have now also given up and so no one will ever bother reading this- which means I can finally write what I want!!:)

I've decided that the only real purpose for me having this is for procrastination purposes- since I've haven't touch this once during my hols. and now that I have 3 essays due in less than a week, I'm back again- with nothing worth while to talk about.

Movie Review!
Went a saw 'You me & Dupree' a while ago now and as much as I wasn't overly excited to go see it in the 1st place I ended up really enjoying it- esp. the last 20mins- where I think I was laugh almost non stop at the Dupree character.

Afterwards though Mich made the comment that I reminded her of Dupree.

This has me slightly concern for 2 reasons (other than the fact that the character is male and I'm female!)

1. She may well have meant this as a 'subtle' hint that the 'you me & dupree' relationship reflects the Steve, Mich and me (being Dupree) relationship. So I'm now going to avoid those 2 until I'm married and completely obessed with my own spouse that I just won't have time to even look at them!!!.....so in other words never.

2. I enjoyed the Dupree character. And this is not the first time I've told Mich that I like something or think something is cute only to have Mich tell me that it reminds her of me- so in other words I'm totally attracted to myself...... not really a personality trait that I've ever desired and since it's not really possible to date oneself- this might be something I need to work on! (the other option is to search for a guy that looks and acts just like me and if such a thing exists I'm not sure a male version of me would work very well!!???!)

So now that I've dumped all my useless thoughts on a useless site that no one reads, I can get on with uni work..... that and my sisters just got home so I'll go and annoy her for a while ........ I really don't know how I hand anything in on time!